unraveling
This series of photographs taken on medium format film investigates the paradoxes that exist within motherhood such as moments simultaneously layered with pain, loss of self and unconditional love. Anxiety, vulnerability, mom guilt, and restlessness were common threads among the womxn in this series.

in their moments of unraveling:
gritting teeth
hair pulling
eye rubbing
scratching
curling up
dazing and gazing
numbing
pretending.
dad
After having babies, I felt betrayed by my body.
I don't know how to let go.
The career I always wanted is what wears me down the most.
I'm always so tired, but I cannot sleep.
I help everyone else, but me.
I don't know how to let go.
The career I always wanted is what wears me down the most.
I'm always so tired, but I cannot sleep.
I help everyone else, but me.
Medium Fortmat Film/120, 2020
“There was a time not long ago that anxiety ruled both my mind and body. Illness coursed through me and took reign over my life. I was forced to put my dream of motherhood on hold to recover and be immersed in self discovery and love. It was as if once I found myself again, the baby found me, too. Pregnancy has only further calmed my anxious mind and presented countless new reasons to love and care for myself. I have my moments of worry, and sad days, but more notably I have an inner peace as my life unfolds in the way I had for so long wished it would.”
- Andrea Jensen